Michael was right about the library, it's a great place to go just to focus. However, I haven't actually done any homework, just done some thinking and listening. Sometimes it can be rather nice to be completely shut off from everyone. I mean, I still have my phone, my computer, so I can technically connect my self to anyone at any given time. But the option to shut away, it's cathartic. These past few weeks have all been a blur. Of parties, school, auditions, practicing, stressing, Beethoven, thinking, not eating, eating one meal a day, parents, work, money issues, bitching, overthinking. And even though most of these things have been painful, or at least a pain in the ass to deal with, I really do feel better having experienced all of them.
Thanksgiving. Hmm. It's the holiday that tells you what to do. Give thanks. I have plenty to give thanks for, not the least of which all those things I already listed. But that's not what this is about. I'm not really one to get all sentimental and shit, at least, not in a blog. That's cliche.
If I can just make it through today, I think everything will be better. Regardless of how things turn out, I just know that having all this stress lifted from me will be nothing but beneficial. That being said, I feel fairly good about everything. Nerves aren't necessarily the worst thing in the world. Let's me know that I really do care, at least. Cake has a pretty darn good trumpet player.
It's funny. How life works.
